If no one is willing to sit down with you, try a therapist.  Their job is to help you and only listen to what you say.  In the mean time, take joy in the things you do by yourself.  How many saltine crackers could you eat in a minute?  Push yourself to do the things that you enjoy, not what anyone else says.  Then share those experiences with your grandparent.  Your happiness can help bring them some as well.

I've been there 3 times in My past, I am 50 years old.  You've made it this far, the school year is almost over.  Muster up Courage and do exactly what I am telling You, it works.  Wait til the last day of school, do it first thing in the morning, and tell the bully that is causing the most trouble to look out, the same fear will be in their heart.  This summer get a hobby, even if you are not good at it, surround yourself with people who are active in something - Art, Basketball, Golf, Tennis, Bible Study, Cooking, etc., something and maintain lifelong friendships throughout the remainder of Your Academic years.  There is strength in numbers.  Go into next year walking in power, love, and a sound mind.  This verse is for You, "The LORD is my strength and my shield;
 in him my heart trusts, and I am helped;

Please don't kill yourself.  Call the suicide hotline immediately - 1-800-784-2433.  They have people to talk to that understand what you are going through and they WILL listen and help you!  It's a free call and anonymous.  Please try it.  You have the right to live in peace and not be bullied.  Bullies are very insecure people and need to hurt others to feel power.  You have to get information on how to cope with this and hopefully stop it.  Keep a daily journal.  Write down everything said or done to you and by whom.  Do you have a school counselor you can also talk to?  Please do not let others take your life away from you - do not give them that power.  Find out what you can do to help yourself.  I am so sorry that you do not have an adult to help you right now. Call the hotline!!

Hi celticwoman,

Please call the hotline mentioned in a post below. The number is 1-800-273-8255. It's available 24/7, and it's toll-free. There are experts trained to help, and you don't have to go through this alone.

My heart breaks for you, and I'm very sorry you're feeling this way. Please call the hotline...

Alex
Community Team

Let me start by saying that you have taken the first and hardest step in getting better, asking for help online.  The next step is talking with someone about what’s going on in your life.

Even though it may seem hard, it’s so important that you talk to a trusted adult in your life about your thoughts of wanting to harm yourself and the bullying that you are experiencing.  Even if you have tried already, it's important to try again.  Some examples include your parents, grandparents, a teacher, the school counselor or nurse, a doctor, a pastor, or a grown up that you feel comfortable sharing with.  Let them know that you are being bullied and that you have been thinking about hurting yourself.  If the first person that you tell doesn’t take you seriously or doesn’t help, then try talking to someone else.  Just don’t give up!

Once you tell an adult, they should help you get to a psychologist or a counselor.  A trained therapist can provide you with the support you need and be available for you so that you can talk about your feelings.

In addition to telling an adult and seeing a therapist, there are also telephone hotlines available that you can call 24 hours a day to talk to someone about what you’re feeling.  Even kids or teenagers can call these numbers!  If you’re thinking of hurting yourself, you can call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline at 1-800-273-TALK (8255).  They are also able to help if you are being bullied and need to talk about what to do.  If you are being abused or are in danger from being hurt by someone else you can call Child Help 1-800-4-A-CHILD (1-800-422-4453).  No matter what though, if you are ever in danger of being hurt (either by yourself or someone else), you need to get help.  If it is an emergency, call 911.  

I am attaching some links for more information about how to get help including the hotlines you can call.

All the best,

Polly Dunn, Ph.D.
Child Psychologist

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