I am so glad that you posted your question and are reaching out for help. It sounds like you have been struggling for quite some time and my heart goes out to you. Although things are very difficult right now, I can assure you that things can improve with time and the right treatment.

Are you currently in treatment for depression? are you taking any medication or are you talking to a therapist? If so, I recommend that you to continue with treatment and speak with your proscribing doctor or clinician about your feelings. If you are not currently in treatment, I strongly encourage you seek out support immediately. Your university should have mental health services that are available to students free or at low cost. If your university does not have services, do a search in your community for local clinics or agencies that provide mental health services.

There are books available, such as "Overcoming Depression One Step at a Time" that may you, as well. This book, and others like it, would be a nice adjunct to your treatment.

Finally, if you ever feel like you cannot go on or want to hurt yourself, call your local police immediately. They can send someone to help and support you through the crisis.

Go with your gut and seek out continued support to help you feel better. Not only will your mood improve, but your studies will also most likely do better, as well. Best of luck to you. Take care.

Sincerely,

Laura Kauffman, Ph.D.
Licensed Psychologist
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