Do I have depression? And if so I need help
Ok, so first of all Ive always had the thought in the back of my head, life would be soo much easyier if I just committed suicide. My parents are divorced, I hate my dads girlfriend to absolute death, but he won't break up with her, I've been cutting myself for months, I hate life, I don't have many friends, I have ADHD which raises the chances of depression 3 times a normal person. I hate myself for what I've done to myself, and I've done things so bad that I can't even say it out loud, let alone on the Internet, even if my name is protected. I'm 13 now, and when I was younger I used to try to run away, smack my forehead on the sidewalk, and even now almost every day, I think about how my life sucks, and what it would be like in the after life, if it's like before your even born, or if there is heaven and hell, I've attempted suicide twice, both hanging, and they were both failers because the line snapped, the only thing keeping me from trying again is how other people react, I also get teased at school. I would tell my parents, but they both used to have drinking problems, and I don't want them to end up drinking themselves to death thinking it was their fault. I still think about what I would write in my suicide note, and no matter how much it horrifys me to think about it, I already know where my dads gun is if I ever really want out of life that bad, I feel so bad, can somebody help me without involving my parents? I might also add later, I have a really bad memory
Teen issues, Depression
> 60 days ago
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